In the area that I live in, if a Christian were to say to another “I fell today” I believe 9 times out of 10 that phrase would imply some sort of sexual disobedience/sin. I loved this growing up, and even today, it provided a clear way to talk to my accountability partner even in school about some our struggles growing up. There was freedom in running up next to him during soccer practice and just throw it out. He knew what I meant and no one else on the team was giving us looks wondering why the two Captains felt these things were wrong or bad for them. But now adays it seems that sexual sin is almost the only thing I hear guys asking to be held accountable to. I’m not hearing, “Hey can you help me look over my spending and see if I’m living poorly?” or “Hey would you help me with my complaining, or road rage?”

Almost to say that if your not struggling sexual then your not struggling and I am afraid that I have begun to slip into that very thought. Here’s the thing. I don’t believe I can live beyond my sin, until I have lived with it. Until I acknowledge exactly what it is and what it meant, I can’t really live beyond it.

So I fell today. In some manner or another, because all fall short of the glory of God so clearly I have fallen today. I wonder if it is even possible to live with all of our sin? All of our judgements, lack of concerns, inappropriate thoughts, white lies, and the like. They happen so often, I wonder if sometimes I sin and don’t even realize it. So I’m trying to live with my sin, to understand why I did what I did. Why I felt it was important to say something a certain way and not the completely true way.

Satan’s strength is our fear of being dirty before God. I think he convinces us that we are not worthy to be in God’s presence let alone loved by God. That what we did was so wrong that we are almost unforgivable. I think we are embarressed mainly becuase so often we thought we would never be the person to do that and so we hide from the greatest love. But looking at David, he owned his sin, and look how God loved him still. I am not suggesting in the slightest that God hates anyone, on the contrary I believe God loves everyone, even the ones that hate him and refuse to believe in him.

Satan is however all to quick to remind me of my screwups my faulters and my mishaps. I think that part of resisting the Devil is to say “yeah that’s right I did sin, and this is what I did.” When we live with our sin, win we trully acknoledge all that has been done, said, and thought, what more can Satan do.

Here is a trustworthy saying that deserves full acceptance: Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners—of whom I am the worst. 1 Timothy 1:15